A Small Dose of Reality

Last Thursday was the most exciting day of this journey for me. I was sitting at work when out of nowhere my phone rang. It was our social worker. I immediately knew this had to be the news we’d been waiting for. We’ve been through all of the classes, been licensed for weeks, and all we’re waiting for now is “the call”. This had to be it! Trying to sound as calm as possible, I answered the phone. She immediately rushed through the pleasantries and told me that she had two little boys, ages three and one that she wanted to place with us and asked us if we would be interested. My brain nearly exploded! “Interested? Of course I’m interested!” I couldn’t wait until I could get off of the phone and tell Jessie that our dreams were coming true. Everything we talked about for years was becoming a reality for us. I told our social worker that we definitely wanted more information on the boys and asked her what we needed to do from this point. She let me know that she would be in contact and to sit tight. I hung up the phone and immediately called my Jessie. As I expected, she was as elated as I was.

For five agonizingly long days, Jess and I sat in silence while we heard no news from the county about the boys. During the initial call from our social worker I was told very little. She didn’t know their names, only that they were three and one. Even though I didn’t know very much, I made what I now think was a beginner’s mistake in telling the WORLD that we may have been placed. I think that in those five days I was asked five hundred times if there was any news. It was very hard. Finally on Tuesday I broke down and left a message on our social worker’s answering machine asking for an update. My only hope was that this wouldn’t annoy her. Luckily, it paid off and she called us back the same evening. Unfortunately, she did not call back with good news. Apparently, the birthmother of the two little boys has other family members that are willing to step forward and care for them, and so the case is being placed on hold until those avenues have been investigated. Needless to say, Jessie and I are very upset. At the same time, we’re trying to stay positive, knowing that if these kids are not meant for us, it simply means that there are another set that are, and those kids will be our perfect match.